I had a near death experience as a child which has a big effect on how I perceive myself and the world around me. I see my body as a perfect machine. It completely sustains itself. Sometimes it scares me. I can feel it having a life of its own. It scares me especially when I think of what my body is made from. I am a wandering universe of microscopic organisms functioning in unity, forming my body which I then can use to roam this world. I am not my body but my body is a part of me, so important … like you can’t join an MMORPG without creating an avatar first. I have to have this body to be here.
But I am not my body, or am I? My lungs will keep pumping air without me having to consciously think of them doing so. My heart will pump the blood through my veins, supplying oxygen to the rest of my body whether I want this or not. The body is programmed to live. I am unaware of almost everything it does to stay “alive”. I wonder: Does it really need “me”? What’s the consciousness inside of this body?
I’m sorry but I’m fascinated. I’m interested in the way the body works, the way it retains memory, for instance. Why does the brain choose to keep one memory but overwrite another? And the amount of abuse it can withstand – what an incredible healing capacity! Sometimes I think people are friggin’ suicidal simply by looking at the way they treat their own body. I then wonder how they’d act should they ever learn its value. But people take their bodies for granted because they got them for free. And people hardly value anything they get for free, right? Then again, some folks are intrigued by sci-fi: “How cool would it be if we had androids roaming around us, cyborgs and stuff…”
Funny how people want to create artificial bodies and AI. Funny how they always want it to be more human-like at first, and then look forward for it to surpass human capacities. Why would you want to create something that’s supposed to mimic and eventually become a “better” you while you not even knowing everything about “you” yet? What if the human body is capable of so much more than pump blood, air, digest food and stay alive? Apparently, we don’t even know how much of our brain’s capacity we actually are using. We believe to have mastered genetics while claiming most of our DNA is “junk” simply because we can’t make much sense of it. There is the Placebo Effect which defies any established “logic” and “rationalism”. Not to mention “Epigenetics”. How much do we work our DNA work as opposed to it “working” us? Our bodies are on auto-pilot. They run to maintain life but that eventually wears off. What if we can do so much more with it? I mean things like super strength under certain circumstances have been studied silently. There are people out there who can do seemingly “impossible” things. I wonder what secrets we’re staring into when facing ourselves in the mirror.
If the body is a machine, then the consciousness controlling it must be the mind. Yes, the mind controls the physical body and so much more maybe? Change your thoughts, change your life. Mind over matter. But … looking into psychology it becomes clear very fast that the mind is just another machine. Very much programmed. And the software is harder to overwrite the longer it’s in use. I want to know what’s beyond this. I want to understand the code. I’m not sure what I’m getting myself into.
What’s the difference between the dabbler and the achiever?
Well, the dabbler tries, fails and gives up. The achiever on the other hand is the polar opposite. And some people tend to take this too far. The old paradigm preaches you have to work your butt off and make sacrifices over sacrifices if you want to get somewhere. That might work for some but others can’t pull through with it. It’s hard to stay on track – not because they’re weak but because this way is not for them. There are generic approaches and tested solutions, sure. But do you really think there is only one perfect way to reach a goal?
While pressure can be a good motivator not every individual handles it equally.
Some might be at their peak performance while others give up. That’s why students with bad grades don’t usually get better. They give up. The school system is just one example where everyone is treated in the same way, regardless of natural predisposition, talent and individuality. We are people but we are not one and the same! We keep trying to fit into a flawed system believing to know the perfect way to the top and because some can’t keep up with it they stop trying.
Yes, hard work and perseverance are important when it comes to achieving goals. You get out what you put in. What if I told you it’s not what we do or don’t which determines success or failure of an endeavor – it’s how much of it. Push too hard to get somewhere and you end up stuck. It’s okay if you can’t work towards your goal for 20 hours a day – there’s a way for everyone.
I believe in consistency more than in anything else.
There is no shame in taking a break and doing nothing once in a while. In fact, it’s rather healthy to zone out regularly, and some tend to be more productive after taking a break. You can’t focus on anything with a cluttered mind. As long as we don’t chill too much, pick up the pace rather soon and continue working on our goal, giving our best – everything is still possible. Allow yourself a breather every now and then. Peace!
The New Moon is all about new beginnings, setting intentions, about giving an old idea a fresh chance etc and this month it is in Aries, the archetypal sign of new beginnings and the Self.
It’s not like I have a real obsession with the Moon. I’m simply aware of the influence it has over us, believe it or not, it’s there. If it’s strong enough to affect the Earth then it does affect us. Specifically when it comes to the Moon, there are many things we don’t know of yet, there’s so much to discover. I like how people tend to think every mystery’s been solved and if not then there surely is an easy way to explain it. Which makes sense, since our world begins with us. We can turn any misconception into a perfect chain of arguments. Those who disagree will create perfect chains of arguments to prove the opposite – and it will make sense from their point of view.
Maybe there are some sensitive people out there who felt the need to start afresh lately being preoccupied with themselves. You’re not going mad, it’s the Moon’s calling and if you feel it, follow it.
Time slows down as the white fog thickens. Darkness falls as the new moon rises. As the guiding light, my voice prevails. – I will never fail you. –
Why am I blogging publicly instead of keeping a diary?
While I’m a complete newbie to blogging, I always had an interest in writing privately and couldn’t live without a notebook for long. I see writing as a powerful tool to release stress and tension.
Nowadays especially, as The Age of Information is taking its toll on our ability to concentrate and think clearly, writing has some therapeutic qualities to it. I also enjoy the feeling of a small victory and a clearer mind once I’m done writing about something that’s been bothering me for a while.
The reason I decided to take my ‘mind surfing’ to a blog is that various people have repeatedly told me about the calming quality of my written expressions as well as the empowering feeling they get once they finish reading a text of mine. It seems as if my feelings get etched in my words and everyone reading them can take something positive from the experience – the same rewarding feeling of a small victory I talked about before.
What topics would I like to write about?
I’d like to write about the twisted mind of ours and how we create our reality by literally thinking it into existence. How what we see outside and what we focus on affects our perception of who we are and our place in society. The blog will tend to be of a spiritual nature, but mind you, I’m not a fan of mainstream spirituality.
Who would I love to connect with via my blog?
I’d like to connect with and bring together people who feel somewhat left out from our society because they don’t fit in and those seeking more to life than what the mundane routine has to offer. As well as the more grounded spiritual people such as old souls, wanderers, deep thinkers, etc. who have a hard time finding a common ground with the mainstream spiritual folks.
What do I hope to accomplish with this blog?
The main purpose of this blog is for me to get a clearer vision of myself and my path. I’d like to attain a clearer state of mind and hopefully spark some inspiration in those who come across it.